the i thought, followed by grudge

there are really people who are sweet talkers, these sometimes are the typical guys you shouldnt believe in the first place.. but how come when you hear these things it sounded so real. it sounded so fascinating. and yes, i once fall for this shit. i believed, not because of how real he said it but i thought he would be soo true about it.. knowing his reputation, knowing his career, knowing our common friend and knowing how his life is.. but i realized he is one of those asshole guys that would leave a girl hanging just because he wants to, he would leave with no words and expalanations and he would leave just as he wished to.. its been 2 months up to this date and i really cant forget what he had done.. and yet i thank him, because of reality speaks to me in his representation. meron pala talagang ganun.. that this ❤️ should be really careful.. its the "I THOUGHT" this will work this time, that i want to show him what my weird world is, that i want to show him who really i am and i want my weird world to know him too.. but i guess he is not worthy at all, not a little of it. i know i am wrong, i should have known better, i should not have let the "iloveyou" said. its my ultimate thing.. yes, i am bitter about everything about him, really am, up to the point of wanting to destroy him on my little way.. (seriously, i want to put a dent or a big scratch on his car) hahaha :) its me, saying you shouldnt have messed with me.. ako pa talaga yung ginanun.. just a grudge because i think i had fallen in love with him..